Falling DownMay 16, 2013 at 2:53 pm | Posted in compassion and connection, coworkers and colleagues, holding myself accountable, observations, poses and asana | Leave a comment
WOW. How long has it been since I’ve been HERE?! Is anyone still following?
Regardless, I was inspired to come back and write in this space when my friend Liv posted this article on facebook. Go ahead; read it. I’ll wait.
This part stood out to me:
“Because if you don’t practice it, how can you teach it?!”
While a part of me honors those who leave out certain poses because they’re simply not in their own practice, I find that I use this principle as inspiration for moving outside of my proverbial “comfort zone.” I WANT to try new things so that I can share them with my participants, and I think that there’s a LOT of under-appreciated value in having participants watch an instructor wrestle with a pose.
I think that too many people come to yoga class thinking that they’ll NEVER be as good as the instructor. Hell, I’ve been practicing for going on 13 years now, and I STILL think that every time I walk into someone else’s class. Despite my exhortation that students NOT compare themselves to other people (or judge themselves too harshly), I find myself doing just that. Every teacher is more graceful and flexible than I am, and I’m particularly bothered by the fact that I can’t (yet) execute a full bind and that my standing straddle is, in my estimation, wholly insufficient.
Letting that go is still a deliberate practice for me. Someday, maybe, I’ll get past it, but for now it’s still something that I’m actively working on.
I think, though, that letting my participants see me fall out of half moon – sometimes spectacularly – or fight for a bind that I can only maintain for one breath gives them permission to fall down and fight, too. Watching me struggle, seeing me shake and sweat, and listening to me talk about the places where it doesn’t just flow demonstrates to them that this yoga thing really IS a process.
Though it sounds counter-intuitive, falling down makes us better.